Dropping, honing, fine tuning


some twelve years or more ago I deliberately began to drop. 

I forcibly dropped worrying (I’d been trained from the earliest times that this is a vital life skill). But I was coming to understand how much it blocked my path, challenged my happiness, obscured my view. 

  
I’ve chipped away over the years, breaking down the patterns of reaction, exploring other options. 

Last year I took a big step into the unknown, I released some old habits that no longer served me. Had they served me in the past? I think so, when I only needed to hide, I hid inside them. I propped them up around me as a fortress. I played pretend. 

  
I wanted to see clearly, be authentic, find out what I’d been missing. Explore unhindered. 

Since then I’ve challenged more beliefs than I knew I had. I’ve dropped and picked up the most unlikely ways, I believe all these are for the better, but I’m playing the long game, I’m watching it pan out and observing the path. 

I am witness. 

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